Seriously.... if any one can give advice =((?

i really want to be smart talking with the people... i be scare whn i talk people i don't know why i do forget words whn i talk with people and i'm kind person maybe lolz any wayz i want be more kind coz whn i get anger i start yell on people but whn i be kind i be like *i don't know how to talk in a smart way*!!i want be soo kind and in the same way i want be smart in the talking so whn people hurt me by saying wrong thing abt me i want talk with thm in a smart way and shut thr mouth i don't want yell on thm or be anger ......sorry my English little bad still learning =)